I'm not even gonna blog about men today...

LMAO!!! its such a waste of time...i'm jus excited to b goin on vacation soon and getting out of town=)
I feel blessed I am very happy...and looking forward to seeing sum peeps i haven't seen in about a year...
Ima have to hit up tha fambam n see whats really good wit them too god help me LOL!
Fam is always nuts ain't they??? gotta love them...

HAHA WELLL THA SAGA CONTINUES...

So i told ya'll i thought something was gonna happen...and i was exactly right...thas why i hate those fuking feelings!!! I try to ignore them when they pertain to my love life lol which is when i really shouldn't...
This guy is acting to busy for TEEK what an idiot really bad move to make...NO.1 rule is DO NOT SLEEP ON ME...dudes who ain't payin me no mind will find out there is always someone
who is willing to pay attention to me...
God bless tha man that lands me!!! he will b spoiled rotten n loved unconditionally...
so on tha flip side check this out...I've noticed tha more i DO N OT give a man what he wants...
n tha more i fly off @ tha mouth tha more they like it....sick sick world we live in lol..where respect jus isn't enough...n common mannors...trust me i am a wild ass bitch n i can wild tha fuk out....but i am also mature n there is a time n place for everything right..>??
so tha minute i tell him "i dont give a shit" all of a sudden he can call me back??? FUKERS LOL...
i still don't have any faith in men tho thanks to TWO recent Associations...
here's my additude "I DON"T GIVE A FUK" LOL how ya'll like me now...?
I don't either ima do me...fuk it...

OK i'm going to try to blog when i'm happy too but...

LOL WOW...so my X sends me a text "i have come to a decision and i want to let u know"
so in my mind this pops in "he want's to marry his gurl" so then next text "i want to get married
and i wanted to let you know first"...WTF is that shit...
I'm happy he's in love i'm happy he's getting married YAAY!!...can u hear tha sarcasm??
It comes @ a time in my life where i recently decided to invest a lil faith into someone...jus an
ounce of hope...Which i wasn't planing to but it jus happened you can only learn so much of
someone n have so many things and wants in common before you start to feel for them...
So i'm upset jus b/c i spent a long time wit this X of mine...and this is like tha final chapter like
"TEEK YOUR A FAILURE"
and i want to contact this current intrest...yet he's not hitting me up...i send him a text..
no response LOL wtf...are they ever there for u...?? So i still haven't broken down n tried
to contact him...maybe i won't...maybe i'll just let tha pony ride cause i smell trouble...
I told my friend tha other day..."I feel a letdown comming" and i was referring to this intrest...
I don't know if i get paranoid or if its reality but sometimes...I am very skeptical b/c a lot
of men lie to me...they take my sweet nature as weakness...and I am not weak...
nor do i have time to put up wit games and lies to further someone else...
I need tha right one...and i'm tierd of wasting time wit tha wrong ones....so we'll c i'll let u know
how it all turns out....
I feel a lil bit of tha weight of tha world on my emotions right now...tha minute i thaw out a bit...
i go back into tha freezer...there will b a point where i wont' do this shit anymore...
and i'm so close....i'm losing faith in men everyday i'm alive on this planet...

LOL GOD SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!